claire¸.¤´¯`ღஐ¤.¸¸.♡➸HoMe๑۩۞۩ღ

ooor.....havnt been here 4 ages.....

sooooooooooooooo lazy~~~kk

 

點解D酒精甘難清曬0既....好辛苦啊.... >.<

 

生仔好辛苦, 好恐怖，好得人驚啊！！！！！soooooooooo horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

what's more....guys r so hard 2 trust...and they always forget their words...(most of them)

 

but, however, whereas, nerverthless, though, even then, still..........

 

oh, 個生日party好開心阿， 好warm, 好crazy....() 雖然係有D事，事先expect左，but didnt happen...

lol, wateva~~~thx a lot, aurelie,  yoann, laura, ger, angus~~~~

短短幾日發生做好多事，認清1D人，明白1D道理，做左1D決定

 

好耐無見係佐治街帶住2只狗仔0既伯伯又出現返，原來拒之前病左，原來2個狗仔1個叫roony, the other 1 is pooh~~~

i said they looked so enjoy n relax, the ...（居然5記得問個主人叫咩名）伯伯話， yea, they enjoy everything, unlike human being, always complain, they r just happy wif being alive.

 

嗯~~~be strong~~

 

 

 

今晚終于睇多次霸王別姬，實在....太....#$#^%#$*&%#$

haizzzz.....要好好霖下，先可以講清楚D感受.....

leslie oh leslie~~~~~~太真了！！！"@.@"-->T.T

 

嗯...最近仲睇左 ocean's 13 & transformers....neva expect transformers會0甘好睇

完全出乎意料~~~好彩去睇左je~~~^^

 

嗯~~~又開始冬眠囖~~yeah~~~

走在路上,前面有只鴿子,鴿子前面有滩水。

在想着祂會不會繞開水灘的時候，祂就義無反顧的踏了過去。

然後想，爲什麽鴿子沒有鞋子穿呢？也不怕着涼嗎？腳溼溼的不會不舒服嗎？

 

u promised me u'll be around                                       i turned my head away

i took ur words n i believe                                          didnt wanna hear wat u said

in ev'rythin u said 2 me.......                                      u had changed ur mind..........

remember wen we wer such fools                                but at the end of my life

and so convinced and just too cool                             on the bed of my life

i wish i cld still touch u again                                      ill know dat my life was gud

i wish i cld still call u fren                                           i went after wat i wanted

i'd give anythin....                                                    n i neva really got it

i wish i cld remember......                                          but it dont matter at all

 

可能好多人都有呢种习惯,成晚反复听一首歌或果几首,就好似今晚,而家0甘

dunno if 2 do sth lyk diz can help wif or not

sat nite, one fren said, a good fren, a true fren, is like star, maybe u cant c them in day time, but u noe they always there

sun nite, one fren said,  其实食烟系無瘾噶, 有既係心癮...

真正想戒左某樣野，最終都係睇個心點霖

 

电脑又有问题了.....已经重装过2,3次的电脑, 这几天突然好象又不行了

不知道是不是天气转变了,类似人类的风湿还是什么中风的问题又发作了

企图用ctrl+alt+delete,给点缓冲...然后等待...

最后还是直接按了power, 一下全部都安静了,终于停止了它沉闷的呻吟

 

ashes 2 ashes, dust 2 dust, may u rest in peace~~~

回来了...

旅游多了,也就知道,

如果负担太多,就不能旅途愉快,行装一切要精简

人生也是如此吧,

短短的一生中,

会遇上什么事,什么人,什么精彩,什么伤痛

该放的还是该尽早

 

這座由石灰岩和泥土聚成的高地毫無特色可言，滄海桑田之際，比它更宏偉的高山，比它更堅硬的花崗岩体，一個個崩塌摧裂，它卻依然故我，不爲所動。

 

懒的整理相片，就这么传上来了，就当是记录而已，不同时期看，会有不同的理解

journey again, time 2 let go~~~~

i'll be back ...someday......

gr8 2 have 1 hour with those 2 crazy kids, nice ppl walking by, n ziggy,the gr8est luv song, which has lots "f**king" in the lyric~ lmao~~~thx 4 cheerin me up without awareness~~~~

 

i dun believe anyone will have the same feeling as i do....

californiacition,...

the only thing hasnt changed....

宿醉未醒......头好痛........idiot

 

突然又有了去旅游的冲动，而且似乎有点落荒而逃..想尽快离开这里,哪怕一下下也好. 一边写着要带的东西,一边看回以前写的journals,心里不知道是感觉. 家又搬了一次,也不知道这次会住多久,曾经期待自己可以象gypsy,到处流浪,or,like the mum n daughter in chocolate, cant remember wat it said exectly at the beginning of the movie, it's like, one kind of ppl or one species of ppl, they r moving following by the wind or seasons changes, how cool is it! howeva, 到了经济越发达,城市越繁华的现代,似乎却越难 成为or afford to be a gypsy,no wonder会被淘汰....

 

不知道到底是成熟了,还是依然幼稚,依然会因为看了小说,而跟着幻想里面的情节也许有天回发生再自己身上,又或者ill hv my own story. 但是有点可以确定的是,..自己是胆小的,没用的,不止一次这样,事情还没发生，就放弃了,只因为害怕真正动心,所以一切止于未然.是对自己适当是保护,还是过于防范,who noes. 只是知道,还不够坚强,在一个人的时候.

 

头发老是长的特别快,所以下定决心剪的时候,也没什么特别舍不得,倒是每次都有不少朋友不准我剪,哈哈,很可爱的朋友~~~

 

某天妈妈突然说,不如回来吧,爸爸妈妈想你,就这么一个女儿,还是六在身边放心点,一个人在外面,有没有的吃,吃不吃的饱都担心的很. 但是不知道为什么,非条件反射的,想也不想的就说 不回不回就不回.妈妈也就只能依了. 后来想想,眼泪都不自觉的掉了出来.自己是自私的,不管对父母还是喜欢的人,害怕受束缚,害怕承诺,害怕可能回受伤,而不顾其他人的感受,只care自己的玩乐,实在太不应该

 

然而,有是对承诺,束缚和被爱的渴望,会想为满月的树袋熊宝宝或蜗牛更适合点,会在夜深人静时,偷偷地探出脑袋, 贪婪的呼吸着夜里清冷的空气,最后依然,始终还是go back la....

 

隐约似乎还有他的气息,衣服给他穿过,还能记起他的shampoo的味道,一时要忘掉是不可能的,所以昨天没有理由地, 送他到车站,然后跟着他回家,然后跟着他到他打工的地方,不止一次给他说过stop being crazy,呵,wateva.说再见时,好好的抱了抱, 头也不回的就逃了..眼泪已经掉过,不敢让他知道,otherwise又会被不理解的make fun  of... coward也好, loser也好,宁愿在totally lose control之前停止.....(虽然有时候是in vain)况且...暂时都弄不清楚到底是因为 纯粹他是他,还是他身上, 好象有某人的影子... 然后躲起来,变态的享受着不愉快,难受,折磨.....突然想起来,好象对leo的分析,有什么"躲起来"的字眼. 呵呵,也许是老了的表现...记得听radio,有一次, 是个小女还说的,sometimes, hearts must be hurt, b4 they r healed.

 

考完试了,家也搬了,应该开始正常点生活了,要好好的organize一下.....

 

还是头痛啊.....T.T.......

 

 

 

 

 

我好似kind of....有左....只宠物....

拒肚饿果时,或者时不时都会来我个balcony度,停留下

最多试过比拒3块biscuit,都仲未饱,仲5肯走,又5知拒一般食几多,惊喂的多拒又会胀S....

有时都会担心捞乱拒同拒D兄弟姊妹.....虽然而家我都未知拒系m/f...=.=

 

惊惊.....琴晚做左出车祸既witness.....几乎全过程

george st n liverpool st....会有阴影噶.....>.<!!

 

 

電單車motobike好好玩阿~~~

好耐無搭過了~~呵呵，better than buses lor~~

 

but got burnt by the pipe is killing......

 

it all begun with one nite, the call, the chat.....

wat the hell's wrong with me? is it u? is it wat i deserved finally?

lost the will, lost the power, lost the ability

 

and then another nite, sth stupid, silly...

and with the ppl i dislike most!!!how drunk i was!!!!

 

and then another chat

精精: 你知你性格噶啦,感觉话黎就黎,话分就分了

安安: 我5知啊

精精:生性D啦

安安:恩....点姐点姐~~~果只野

精精:系米有心同人发展啊?

       你而家系米仲有种想玩玩既心态

安安:.................

 

精精:真系无左咩?

安安:恩.....呵...

精精:有无觉得系一种解脱?

安安:少少挂....

精精:有无觉得好痛呢?

安安:呵呵,唔知点讲,

精精:向前望咯,随遇而安,都算系一段宝贵既经历既

 

i cant think of anything and cant solve the feeling, dont wanna neither

the reason?maybe yes....maybe not

men's r so hard to trust, wat if i cant even trust myself? let alone trust anyone else!

i should've never msged u. i should've never called u. i should've never met u.

however ill never regret to have everything and everyday......when i was with u

 

虽然目前都无乜人同我同名,but其他用途都唔少,例如比人用系签名/space/news度,

it's so obvious that the outcome are so different from different ppl who use it

for this one, i can never say anything 2

于是安然一份放弃，固守一份超脱

呢几日都想写D野噶....但始终都系无, 唔知应该点表达,唔知点先可以讲得清楚

次次都系按左添加,然后开始发牛窦...就好似今晚感...算了,训了....

应该早D训tim...终于可以训返自己铺床,况且仲要系唔使share.....

霖清楚D再写啦,.....

元宵了.............中国既情人节.......

 

睡不着.......>.<

时间调整不过来....

想起好多事,忘记好多事

看了伤城 人生的确是个无奈的过程

怎么样深刻的疼痛都将成为过往

谁也不是谁的谁

谁也没做错 只是一直错过

爱情还没演完 我们已经走散

躲在霓虹后面 假装不孤单

只是这样的生活  还能坚持多久

有一种花 只能艳盛一个晚上

有一种生物 只能存活一个昼夜

有一种爱情 一开始便知道结局

有一种人   失去了爱的能力

shit!未开始写野就开始落雨!

 

恩.....写D野先,又开学咯,so far都几好玩~~

 

上堂随想:

     the more i concentrate on the smell, the more clearly i can smell...abt those ppl from N & I

     点解无正常D既人中意我,or我中意既类型中意我?

 

巴士随想：

　　讨厌和中小学生一起坐车．．．好吵好闹．．．哪天刚好碰上中小学放学，满车站的都是各式各样的校服．在车上，虽然平时是favorite的位置，也因为一群小男生在旁边打打闹闹而变的有点irritated．．．以后尽量和他们错开时间．．．哪怕有些是小帅哥．．．还要不小心听到他们说哪个哪个女生怎样，约会又怎样，还有一个说喜欢比他大的女生．．．现在的小孩哦．．．唉．．．

　　７点多的那班车上，有个男人在车上才打呔，有时候头发弄的好点，一根一根竖起来的，有时后脑勺那部分弄的软塌塌的，衬衫永远都烫的好好的，不管是白色，粉红色还是天蓝色．８点左右的车上，也有个在车上才打呔的男人．他们是单身？分居？还是离了？早上帮老公打呔，然后再在门口叮嘱几句，不是很浪漫甜蜜的一件事吗？不晓得哩～～～（台湾人说话～好玩～～）

　　

看电影随想：

　　为什么黑人就是天生的歌唱家哩？好羡慕他们的声音捏～

　　刚刚才觉得好人有好报，只要坚持生活下去，就一定会得到上帝的眷顾．但有的时候，在有些地方，有些人还来不及等到上帝的注意，就失去了享受的权利（晕．．．在本子上原来写错字了），恩．．．还是比较喜欢leon成熟一点的样子，虽然感觉有点怪怪的，但人总要长大．．．看完这部都不敢看pursuit　of　happiness了．．．怕会象以前看　妈妈再爱我一次　那样．．．连flatmate看过都哭了．．．我只是看preview都觉得难受．．．还是算了吧

　　应该算是科幻片吧？查过金山，原来是幻觉记忆，似曾相似的感觉的意思．　但现实生活中，哪有那么好的事，可以穿越时间空间回到过去，哪怕是为了做好事，都是不太可能的．．．而且那天不知道为什么，以前都是一样的easy　way啊．．．那天居然有点憋．．．看的实在不爽．．．７４老娘了！！！！！！！！！

 

说完，睡觉！

 

Ｐ．Ｓ：我就知道情人节不属于我！！！到现在都还没真正过过．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．

好闷啊....好热啊!!!!

卒之过完上个星期,好鬼累~but好充实!!!!

做左AYOF (australia youth olympic festival) 既volunteer,又识左唔少体育"界"D人,台湾都有~哈哈~~好好玩啊,D小朋友好鬼趣稚~~然后都系稳返最亲切既体操队, and then仲要系蹦床队,哈哈~~好开心挖~

最后一日做埋tour guide,博命死晒,据说星期日既温度系42度,然后仲要完全无风,哈哈~~终于黑左唔少~~

 

走晒咯,全部都走左咯,突然好似好空虚, otherwise都唔会感无聊写blog.....

唉.........好闷啊........好热啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

原来有D野,真系会永远留系个心入边

back from whitsunday for 2 days, i should had written down sth for this trip

but i dont feel good...like something missing....

i wanted to rename those photoes so that can make my trip clearer

but, i felt sad when i review those pics, they reminds me the trip,

where i drank, where i had bubble dances, where i dived, where i got sunshine,

where i really enioy the life, where i met ppl, where i love, where i lost my heart:(

 

i knew it was crazy abt all these stuff, but they are real!

so hard to let go

 

i used up all my $!

im darker than i was after all~~~~ though it was not completely what i wanted

i finished prison break season 1

but hate the FBI jerk in the seasonII!!!!!!

and the way of walking of micheal (not sure whether wentworth r the same) is abit....weak and weriod.

i've been to singapore, HK, the great wall, sydney, great barrier reef, 5places in the 50 most wanted-go-visit views:)

 

and maybe the 6th, ayers rock, 7th new zealand~~~lol

i made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

overcame all the difficulties~~~~i dived today!!!!!!!!!!!!

so exciting!!!!!!

 

when i was snorkelling, i was shocked suddenly, coz i never did it b4 and really cant get use to breathing by mouth. wat's more, the view under the water, the great barrier reef, is too amazing, too unbelievable,too gorgeous for me to breath...so i wasnt doing good with that mask and the mouthpiece. This made me more nervous!!! but those corals, those colourful creatures, just under ur fins, along with u, swimming with u, around you!!!!!!

 

finally, i put on all those stuff for scuba diving, the fin, the mask, the oxygen bottle( i cant remember the exact name...), i was still chatting with others, (all westerners....it seems i was the only one asian look....) until we went into the moon pool, where we get ready and practise the skills for diving, i wanted to quit!!!!! With all the possibilities or excuses that make my withdrawal reasonable...i tried twice to signal Brad, ( even though not the same family name, he has one common with that Brad, married! >.<), with  the problem in my chest, with the problem with my eyes, (thanks Brad, u r really a good guide..guy, so reliable, :) that encouraged me alot!) at last, i saw that guy, a westerner, pretty young, even more nervous than me when we still on the deck, he went down to the rope but not staying in the pool, and 中国人唔系东亚病夫!!!! and i might be the 1st one to dive in my family, among my friends, anyway, i just made up my mind suddenly and went down to the rope with Brad!!!!

 

it is a real something!!!! it was not until then, did i realise im so close to the nature, so close to another creature, another totally different creatures!!!!!!!!!!!!! though i was sometimes bubbled by myself's exhale....im so happy, so exciting that i made it!! i was 10meters under water and diving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i met Wally~~~that big fish, 好似系苏眉...but i forgot the english name for it. it is said that it is more than 100cm( 好似110几cm0甘啦). it was nice and cute! i padded on its head, belly and back~~ it likes people, and it s bit naughty~~~and Brad kept his promise, always just right next to me! And he found some sea cucumber, star fish and some other creatures, colorful, beautiful and unbelievable!!! and also another dive introducter VCR us~~~~and i can see those ppl who snorkelling above us:) and when i got used to the pressure in the water and the breathing we had to go back. and on the way back, i almost got lost, coz i was the first one and i went to a wrong rope~~~lol

 

well, quite enough for this one, it was a pity that i didnt bring enough money to dive second time, obeviously this half hour dive cant not sactisfied me :P, but im d**n starving and still suffer from the movement of the waves...the boat....i have to stop and continue with it later

 

i met alot nice people in this trip which made it harder to forget! im going back soon, but i definitely will come again!!

 

P.S pics coming soon~~~~~that is the big naughty guy "wally"~